Have you ever felt so trapped in a feeling that you know, even when you scream, no one can hear you?

You talk. A lot. So he can hear. You say, words, paragraphs so he can understand. But the walls he built are too high and so sound proofed that even the bomb can’t get pass through.

You deliver. Your gestures are huge and very noticeable. You show concern and affection. Liking and doing the things he like. But none of your effort seems to caught his chinky eyes.

You fish for his words, to questions you deliver as a joke. Laugh and pretend that you don’t really mean them. But deeply you are wounded and weeping, as the answers seem to justify no future for you two.

You want not to like him but the feelings doesn’t go away. You try to change your ways but still unnoticeable to his array. You want to touch him so he can feel your warmth and hug him tightly. You want him to see you, and look at you the way you look at him.

Ash

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